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content notes: some mild but potentially triggering talk for disordered eating

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i have a whole bunch of these! it was just new year's, and i always get really into new year's resolutions because i love navel-gazing. most of these are more long-term, though? more places i want to direct my life towards than destinations i want to reach, i guess.

my biggest most important overarching goal is something i have called No Perfect, because tldr a bunch of personal shit perfectionism is my fatal flaw. accepting this about myself has already like, helped a whole bunch. realising how much of what i do and think is wrapped up in this?? mind-blowing, lemme tell you. therapy is wild.

so that's the big-un! ( i have many more; i'm not kidding about the navel-gazing yo )

here i am doing another snowflake_challenge post, and it's for self-promotion. I Hunger For Validation Okay

when you lay me down you'll bury only bones [podfic] (welcome to night vale, canon-compliant, carlos/cecil)

i think this is my favourite podfic i've ever made, ever? it's a beautiful soft heartfelt story about love and friendship and identity and like, night vale weirdness, and reading it aloud was just an absolute joy. it just kind of flowed out of me, easy as anything, which is such a Good podfic feeling, when it goes like that. and i'm just really happy with the end product.

Starstruck (another word I never learnt to pronounce) (merlin, stardust au, elena/morgan + a shit ton of others)

this isn't, like. it's nearly six years old now, and last time i reread it i cringed, but it still made me feel a lot. it started because i wanted to write a fix-it fic for morgana, but it kind of ballooned into approximately every feeling or grievance i ever had regarding this cursed show. so it's maybe not good, but it's very very important to me. maybe it could be to you too.

coax the cold right out of me (the 100, college/coffee shop au, monty/miller, bellamy&miller, minor bellamy/raven)

in my notes i described this as a self-indulgent mess and wow is that true. i wrote this in the middle of a depression/anxiety spiral in my final year at uni, and i poured an embarrassing amount of that into this fic. but also it's about friendship and soft romo nonsense and taking care of each other and having a bunch of feelings, aka The Leish Brand TM. i've got a bunch of really lovely comments on this, so it seems it's not just relevant to my specific interests! maybe.

i'm gonna do the not-self recs one next! i have too many things i want to rec, so i'm gonna figure out a sensible way to structure it. maybe a theme? idk we'll see.

i've been enjoying seeing people's snowflake_challenge posts and i actually have stuff i wanna post for this day!

friends at the table is an actual play table top rpg podcast about critical worldbuilding, smart characterisation and fun interaction between good friends AND IT'S GREAT. i wrote a manifesto, pls read it and listen to the podcast (or check out their episode transcripts, which are currently incomplete but the work is ongoing).

here is a snippet where they talk about a main character from their COUNTER/weight arc, ibex, whom i love.

( some feelings )

( transcript )

i love austin walker with my whole entire heart. speaking of, here is a soundboard somebody made with thirty Things He Has Said, including, in tones of delight, "who's that big man?" and his classic heartfelt "aw, buddy". even if you have no idea who this man is, it will delight you.